Failure

It pins you down

Captures you in its grasp and won’t let you go.

You can try as hard as you would like

But nothing you do will help

The voice in your head

Constantly reminding you that you failed

You did not succeed

You’re a failure and a disappointment

Don’t try again

It’s not worth it

Waste of time, space and energy

Give up.

I’m Scared

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I’m Scared 

 

No matter how loud I scream

No one hears me

I plead and I beg

Stop please

But the agony continues

Every move I make

Every word I say

Is wrong.

I try and hide from all of this

4 walls that when I am enclosed in I should feel safe

Not today

Today I feel far from safe

Scared and fearful

Underneath the blankets in the darkness

The tears fall and I want nothing more than for it to stop

Once again

No one can hear me.

Balloons

balloons in the night

red against the black

release the string

allow it to slip through your fingers

life will be easier when it’s gone

you won’t need to protect it

the balloon will pop on its own

you can breath now

5 Tips for Conquering High School

I’m sure you’ve heard all the boring advice you could possibly hear about High School. I’m not here to tell you all those same, generic points. Instead, I want to give you the real survival guide of what to do and what not to do so that you actually enjoy your high school experience. Think of this as Ned’s Declassified School Survival Guide 2.0

  1. Preparing for the Work

This is probably one of the most important parts of high school in terms of academics. There is more work that comes with high school and this means TIME MANAGEMENT. I cannot stress this enough, having good time management skills is so important. I know a lot of kids who hear the words “long term assignment” and just assume they have all the time in the world. Please, whatever you do, don’t just assume you can blow it off until the night before it’s due. It helps to keep an assignment notebook in your backpack or purse so that way you can plan out your time and do a little bit of the project every night. I know you’ve probably heard it a million times but for real it helps to manage your time.

2. AP/Honors!!

Being a part of an honors or AP course is a great experience! The course is a bit harder than your average class though and this means that you need to prepare yourself. Any work that was given to you over the summer for these classes is extremely important. I know no one wants to do summer work but if you don’t do it you’ll only dig a bigger hole for yourself come the start of the new school year. Doing little bits at a time is probably the best solution so you don’t have to do it all the night before school starts. When it comes time for the actual class make sure you have all your materials and that you complete all your work on time. Falling behind in the class will only make it seem harder. This goes for all classes, staying on top of your work or even doing some in advance can be very helpful.

3. Be Active!

No I am not talking about exercise (but that’s important too!) I’m talking about being involved in your school! Trust me if there is one thing I regret in high school it is that I wasn’t involved enough. Go all out for spirit days, go wild at dances, attend sports events! Have the time of your life at these events who cares what everyone else is saying, because in reality they wish they were having as much fun as you. When that Friday night football game rolls around and you can’t decide whether or not you should go always decide to GO! You’ll regret it if you don’t and being around all your friends and cheering on your school is always a fun time!

4. Keep your friends close by

Being a part of the “popular” group is not important, having a group of 4 or 5 close friends is just as fun. The need to “fit in” may seem like the most important thing in the world at the start of high school, but in reality this couldn’t be farther from the truth. The more you try and fit in the farther you become from your true self and there is no use in trying to be someone you’re not because you won’t be your happiest self. Being yourself in high school can definitely be hard but you’ll be happy because it is easy to be yourself but hard to be someone else.

5. New Experiences

High School comes with a lot of new experiences which you may be scared of and that’s ok. From boys, girls and learning about the college process high school is a lot to handle. Keeping an open mind can help get you through all of this, staying positive is another essential part of making high school all that more manageable. What I like to do is use the 5 rule. If something is keeping you down or making you sad just ask yourself “will this matter in 5 days, 5 weeks, 5 months or even 5 years?” if you answer no to these then don’t let whatever it is that’s bringing you down bring you down! Always talk to someone about how you feel whether it be a friend, teacher, sibling etc. Keeping your feelings and emotions bottled up isn’t healthy and won’t help you in the long run.

I hope that these 5 points help you through High School! Remember that high school can be so much fun if you surround yourself with positive people and try your hardest! Have fun in high school and be yourself! Wish you the best of luck. Always remember to take care of yourself and keep yourself healthy.

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