I’m not good with math
Or numbers or change
but here’s an equation
I’ll try to explain
if I start with a positive
and lose any cents
My account becomes negative
make any sense?
I know you don’t get it
Just hear me out
I’ve run out of worth
causing debt and doubt
I don’t take loans
grants or gifts
in the form of cheap thrill
Or fake relationships
so try and keep quiet
don’t fuss or holler
Bc what’s your two cents
Compared to my dollar
You still don’t get it
so let me just say it
I am changing for me
And no opinion can delay it
So in Dollars, cents
pennies or quarters
know your self worth
And stop taking orders
So better yourself
and don’t be ashamed
add up your value
Bc everyone needs change
Tag: poet
Failure
It pins you down
Captures you in its grasp and won’t let you go.
You can try as hard as you would like
But nothing you do will help
The voice in your head
Constantly reminding you that you failed
You did not succeed
You’re a failure and a disappointment
Don’t try again
It’s not worth it
Waste of time, space and energy
Give up.
I’m Scared
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I’m Scared
No matter how loud I scream
No one hears me
I plead and I beg
Stop please
But the agony continues
Every move I make
Every word I say
Is wrong.
I try and hide from all of this
4 walls that when I am enclosed in I should feel safe
Not today
Today I feel far from safe
Scared and fearful
Underneath the blankets in the darkness
The tears fall and I want nothing more than for it to stop
Once again
No one can hear me.
INSOMNIA
There’s always something so beautiful about the night,
you don’t usually notice that because you’re sleeping or you should be,
that’s what I keep telling myself,
everything still, natural as the day it was created
I twist, I turn, take another glimpse at the clock on the wall,
I sit there watching the hours go by, darkness turn to light
I hear the birds calling and with that comes the harsh reality,
This isn’t normal.
Everyone tells me to ‘chill out’, if only it was as easy as that,
I know it’s only sleeping but, it forms a big part of the bodies functions,
I’m not living anymore, I’m just existing
I sit in school, barely learning, I myself am barely functioning.
When will this end, when will I be myself again,
Everything I loved, everything I hated, it circulates in my mind
I want to get better but, I just don’t know how,
If there is a god up there, take me from this.
This poem is a short representation of how some people who suffer from insomnia feel, It’s always important that if you are having trouble sleeping, you let someone know whether that be a parent, a friend or a doctor.